How it Happened and What I Learned

If there is one question you have it might be " i thought you where waiting till you where married to have sex?".  Good question! and in fact its one that I find hard to answer for even myself. The answer is not short or easy. I believe this; i didn't not loose self control in a heat of the moment rash decision. I made a clear choice. I missed the mark of Gods holiness. I sinned. 

Personally I have begun to find it quite funny that my choice to sin led to one of the most amazing blessings in the world! No we where not ready for the parenthood chapter in our life. We are nervous and scarred and still in shock. But God is a wonderful creator. He is molding this child and has planned for this baby and has plans for it's life. And i look forward to being a part of those plans. 

Looking back i remember laying bed tears in my eyes feeling there was no one perfect out there for me. That i would grow up and grow old alone. That there couldn't be a man out there who wanted me. I'm not pretty enough, i'm not smart, i'm nothing special and no one will want me. All I wanted then was to find a good man and be a mommy. I didn't expect it to all happen quite like this and now that it has i want something different. how petty my mind is and how selfish am I. I have recieved everything I prayed for.

So i've now learned so much in such a short time. No i'm still no ready for this change, but i am happy about it. I cant wait to meet my little dude or dudet( hopefully a girl :)! I have once again learned to focus on being content no matter where I am in life or what I have (plhp 4:13). No matter what the most important thing is that God is My light and guides me. 

To conclude. The baby is doing just fine. All is well in the world of the womb! However the little bugger is attempting to slowly torture and kill me. I feel sick almost all day every day, have very little appetite, Puke!, and apparently need to eat more fiber. Oh the joys of pregnancy. In addition Kevin and i have moved into an appartment together about 15 mins from my work. I still work 40hrs a week and enjoy my job( minus the extra hardness of the pregnancy symptoms). Kevin is looking for work so please also pray for him to find something he'll enjoy and that will pay nicely. We will do okay on the one income for now but with baby things to buy we need the extra money and soon.

Thank You for your love prayers and best wishes. Ill be happy to answer questions and would love all your support and help.

Love krissy, Kevin and Baby